“You can trust me with that.” Emphasis on the word THAT when my husband said it. As in – – – I can trust him with my life – – – when I can’t decide for myself because of a potential health condition. Really? My health care proxy paperwork is needed by the cancer hospital because […]
Read more "You Can Trust Me With THAT"I’ve always known I was rare. I know my gifts and talents are precious treasures. My devotion and friendship are cherished by friends, of course not so by my husband, but that’s not the topic of today’s blog. I didn’t know, until my recent diagnosis, though, that I’m one in a million. Actually, 1.5 in […]
Read more "One In a Million"I don’t know what the heck I did for the Karma Bus to be smashing me to bits right now. That’s how I truly feel. Why ALL of this? Why now? It’s just too freaking much. No sincere apology from my husband for lying to ME, his group, multiple therapists, his sponsor, our marital therapist… […]
Read more "Too much at once: New SA discovery & now potential cancer. For me."Well, in two days I have a PET scan. Yep. A scan for cancer in my whole body. This is a recent development over the past week. I’ve been struggling with asthma and bronchitis for the past three months (on top of other chronic health issues, which had been improving). I saw a pulmonologist and […]
Read more "Health and Betrayal: Another Setback"Last weekend was profound for me. Two of my adult nieces were in town, and we’ve always been close. One is a brilliant literature academician, and I attended a small dinner party celebrating her marriage. My niece is a private, reserved, intellectual, and a deeply feeling, caring young woman. I was talking with her and […]
Read more "Unexpected Gifts"So. I never thought I’d be writing this blog topic. I believed my husband wasn’t sexually betraying me for the past 3 years, after his initial confession. After all, he passed a recent sexual fidelity polygraph, too. The man who handled that exam is known over the U.S. and Canada, and has a sterling reputation. […]
Read more "Faking Recovery and Entitlement: Lies"So, as often happens, the universe guides me. I listen. I happened to see a link to a video on Twitter about one of the “biggest intimacy killers” for couples who’ve been affected by infidelity. I don’t read or watch videos about betrayal daily anymore as I spend time on MY recovery – yoga, mindfulness, […]
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